aww!!!! the masked man love me! idk how can i fallin love with him so easy...he's different man i ever seen... i love him such as i love brand... idk idk idk

well,,,im alone..i'll start to work 12:00am... maybe i'll back.. 2 or 3 am... actually,im afraid to take this job..this is my first time to take this job...but i must brave to take this job.. huhuhu.... because there's no one that kept me to take this work...i wish him with me right now but that never came true..he's gone...i accept ,,i lost him because he doesn't belong to me anymore...i'll be okay..i must comfort myself without him...i can't cry..i can't hope him again...he's not mine....

hehehe..he's gone!! he just left a piece of paper...nearby breakfast made by him.. hahaha he's left...he's left!!!! HE'S GONE!!!!!

i don't know how to say ... i'm not gonna tell anybody what wrong with me and what happen with me...i can't tell  what's my problem to anybody else....and im lost my baby again cuz last night im drunk too much...umm....well just get a mad from brandon.. tell me im useless mom,stupid,bitch and slut like my youngest sister said to me....and he's never know my feelings.. i do a lot of sins...what's he know my feelings?! no..he's never know..he dont care about me again..he's hate me now!.. i can't do anything.... but it's okay i never hate him..my fault...

trying hard to fight these tears....i'm crazy worried..messing with my head this fear ..i'm so sorry...i can't be perfect for you...i  can't be a good people for you!..but I LOVE YOU SO MUCH..yeah you knew it...i want you with her...it's my hope!! i hope you can take care of my youngest sister...this is the best for you...

these day is my last day with him..a beautiful time..now all end...not ever you know ..so my illness ..dilemma for myself i love you! let me guilty in front of your eye... your love make me sad and the end  of one's rope...but i'm excessive love...it's hard for me to believe he's already leave me ..like i said..he dared to be responsible....i'm proud of him....but.. yes he's will be a good dad..:))))

yeah i love him so much...but he's never love me..i thought he's love me but..i'm wrong..when i know he's never love me ..yeah i'm broken hearted.. but i still alive cuz of him....you're the reason that i'm not afraid to fly..now no matter what it is i have to do i'm not afraid to try...i want you to know how much i love you...but yes,you just love your true love! this is my fault...and your true love is my youngest sister.. but she's didn't know who am i....

but it's okay..i have the little brandon tymon...i hope my baby is a boy..but the real i want a twin baby :))